I was only 15. I met the "man of my dreams".

I fell so hard in love with him, I could see no wrong. He pressured me into having sex with him. I'm a Christian, so I don't really believe in pre-marital sex, but he said he'd leave me if I didn't. I didn't want to lose him...(stupid me), so I had sex with him. A few days after, I started having this funny feeling that I could just not put my finger on. And when my period was 9 days late, I finally got the home pregnancy test. Well, it came back positive.  Buy Marlboro cigarettes online

Even though I had this tiny human inside me, I'd never felt so alone.

I couldn't tell anyone about me being pregnant...I'd probably be banished from my family. I kept it a secret. I felt so ashamed. I waited 2 months before even thinking about abortion...the thought never crossed my mind. I wanted to keep this baby...really badly...I even named her Shayla Marie. My "boyfriend" talked me into the whole thing. saying "it will lessen our problems, and we can live normally!" I "loved" him and would do anything to please him...I was afraid of him. I didn't want him to tell my mom. That's why I did it. sky number customer services

I called up the local clinic, and they scheduled my appointment.  I've never signed so many forms in my life! After some blood work, and other tests, it was my turn to be wheeled back into the room. It was so bright, and cheery, and everything looked normal, you could never tell they were taking innocent lives in that room, except for some machines in the back that were covered in sheets...they didn't want you to see the horrible things.

The doctor came in, gave me a little pain killers, and dilated my cervix. He started cutting away my baby...Frantic I begged him to stop, I just kept crying and crying, and I kept squirming, I couldn't kick him because my legs were in the stir-ups. I have NEVER felt so much pain before that. 

After the "operation", I was wheeled back into recovery. I just sat on the floor staring out of the window, crying, and screaming,! and kicking...I couldn't believe what I had just done. I killed my chi ld so my "boyfriend" would stay with me. I left the clinic determined to never come back again. That night I cut myself...I just watched my blood flow all over the floor...I had never felt so depressed. I suffer deeply from PASS (Post Abortion Stress Syndrome). 

Everyday I wish I could hold my baby, and love her, and kiss her. 

My "boyfriend" left me because he couldn't take my "emotional baggage". 

If your thinking of abortion...DON'T.

Give your baby a chance at life...I know that you've made a mistake, but abortion is a BIGGER mistake.

You'll live with the horror everyday of your life.

If anyone would like to contact me, just email, I'll always lend a listening ear, and try to give the best advice I can.  shayla_marie03@yahoo.com

Thank you for listening. And much love to all of you.