I was 19 years old. I had a perfect boyfriend and a perfect life or at least that's what I thought. I had just graduated from high school and I would be going to University in the fall. My boyfriend and I spent a great summer together and that August we celebrated our two year anniversary. как скрыть полноту с помощью одежды

Two weeks before our anniversary I found out I was pregnant and I didn't tell anyone but my boyfriend Zack. He was very scared but he said it was my decision and he would stay with me no matter what choice I made. I really loved Zack. But after I found out I was pregnant I didn't want to be around him anymore. I felt like it was his fault. Metal crawl space doors, commercial metal doors.

So finally I came to the decision I would have an abortion. I didn't tell anyone. It was like I lived a secret life going to doctors appointments and not telling anyone where I was going. It was the worst thing I ever went through. So finally it was 9 weeks and I went to have an abortion. Zack came with me.

He stayed with me the whole time until I was wheeled down the hall in a wheelchair. I can still remember the look on Zack's face when I had to say goodbye to him. Then I woke up from surgery an hour later in recovery. I will never forget the smell in that room and how cold I was. To this day I cannot go into a hospital because the smell will take right back.

I realized it was all over and I could go back to my old life.

I was wrong.

Zack and I never got along afterwards - I couldn't look at him the same. I had to break up with him. I knew things would never be the same. And they aren't.

I live with regret everyday of my life.

I wish I would have had that baby and given him or her a chance. I know I could have done the best I could and Zack I would still be together. There is not a day that goes by when I don't think about what I have done.

It will haunt me for the rest of my life.